I used to feel a sense of accomplishment when I posted a new page. It felt good, like I was on my way to something greater. Now, I barely feel anything. It’s been seven years, and with every post, I feel like I’m still at the foot of a mountain I can never scale. I constantly second guess my actions, wondering if I should have done some things differently.

I don’t know if I should keep going. It hasn’t felt like I’ve grown or gotten better in a long time. It hurts me, too. I see what I’ve done and I do feel a need to at least come to a conclusion of sorts. I love these characters and this world I’ve been building. But I also get the dreadful feeling like I’m gonna be in the same place I am now when I’m an old man. I don’t know if I can handle that.

I’m not saying I’m quitting. I think I just need some time away from this. I hope you can understand.